FolkJoy

2004-10-14T11:11:00.000-04:00

I set up a new blog for myself. Same blather, different layout, lol. http://www.folkjoy.blogspot.com I won't be posting at this one anymore.

2004-09-17T11:31:00.000-04:00

I plan to start updating this regularly even though I don't have a computer in my apt. I'll try to keep stopping up at my dad's a few times a week. I've been majorly redoing my house. So far I've repainted the kitchen, my bedroom, the bedroom floor, the bathroom and I plan to start the living room walls and floor this weekend. My house looks disasterous now but I have high hopes of it looking

2004-07-02T16:21:00.000-04:00

I cannot manage to update this blog enough. I'm just entrapped(gleefully) in my painting right now. I'm living day to day, me and Jack in the studio churning paint. I'm so glad Jack is interested in painting. He is most amazed by the mixing of colors, of the change a subtle dab of different hue with produce. I feel very whole and joyful being able to share my passion of creating with him. I've

2004-06-22T11:52:00.000-04:00

Here's my tattoo:

2004-06-21T22:12:00.000-04:00

Just spent a week in Wisconsin visiting my mom and brother. My brother does not have cancer, which his doctor thought he had. We were obviously happy about that, but his doctor's are unsure about what he does have, so that's troubling. His enlistment in the Navy is postponed indefinatley until more tests come back. Things I noticed about Wisconsin: There are alot of cows(which seems obvious,

2004-06-12T16:57:00.000-04:00

red cheeks hide beneath wavering hands. timid smiles shy at having to speak their poems off paper, out of themselves, into the world. i have grown fond and accomstomed now to speaking. our small groups in tiny rooms full of smoke, close company, and laughter. i appreciate the time afforded to each person, the finger snaps and claps and glowing eyes given to the poetspeaker who pours it all out

2004-06-12T16:51:00.000-04:00

Tomorrow morning I leave for the long car trip to Wisconsin. My brother, Jack and I will be visting my mom and brother there. Its the first time I've been out there. It'll feel nice to see my mother's home. Her life, her creature comforts again. I have new step-sisters I've never met. I can't wait to see them. The knit of my family tightens over the years. My brothers and I all out of our teens,

2004-06-09T16:36:00.000-04:00

Hot humid days. Jack's been naked for the last 2 days. We've been eating little besides chilled fresh fruit, veggies and hummus, yogurt, iced juice, cold pickle sandwiches. My floors are all powdery from the sand tracked in from the sandbox on the porch. Dante's been at my feet under my studio desk, basking in shade. Jack's been at the sink, playing water pistol with the hose. Last night was

2004-06-07T03:10:00.000-04:00

i thought i in my infinite pretension would forever be wont to goodbyes on my terms so the shock to my unyielding ego stands to humble my pride question my stride pause my unstillable attention i've never been left with questions unanswered with a heart unpoured of its reasons what a vain girl i've been my smugness must have filled a room with me my logic no match for my brassy nerve so sure

2004-06-02T04:38:00.000-04:00

Make a cartoon icon of yourself! Portrait Illustration Maker Here's me:

2004-05-28T12:02:00.000-04:00

Which Tree did you fall from? Dec 23 to Jan 01 - Apple Tree Jan 01 to Jan 11 - Fir Tree Jan 12 to Jan 24 - Elm Tree Jan 25 to Feb 03 - Cypress Tree Feb 04 to Feb 08 - Poplar Tree Feb 09 to Feb 18 - Cedar Tree Feb 19 to Feb 28 - Pine Tree Mar 01 to Mar 10 - Weeping Willow Tree Mar 11 to Mar 20 - Lime Tree Mar 21 (only) -Oak Tree Mar 22 to Mar 31 - Hazelnut Tree Apr 01 to Apr 10 - Rowan Tree Apr

2004-05-24T16:49:00.000-04:00

more than usual, I'm caught between the contrasts and extremes. the urging, that longing induced by miles and tension, and the simultaneous pulling back, retreating within myself. my lips feel so sealed, so seared... I feel slighted, raw, excited....placated and vacant so what shall we talk of tonight my dear as the earth pulls us round.. my hands are black from the paint I'm pushing them in

2004-05-21T15:43:00.000-04:00

I've been in a mad frenzy of painting/collaging. I've finished four complete works in 3 days and I'm actually satisfied with them. Craziness. Melissa, Jack, and I have been planted in the studio all day. Coming out for food and bathroom breaks. I'm all high strung on creative energy. Tonight, if everything goes as planned, I'm meeting with some friends to read poetry and whatnot. I spent an hour

2004-05-18T13:55:00.000-04:00

What should have been the easiest camping trip of the season, clearly was not as we found out just a couple hours in. Thank you Mr. Dickinson for the blue tarp you put up, with the white rope that shone through the black of the storm(thunder included on the soundtrack). Within minutes, a mad frenzy of pulling and grunting, the sliding of vinyl against wet soil became all I heard, even over the

2004-05-17T14:23:00.000-04:00

gOnE cAmPiNg HaVe FuN eVeRyOnE!!

2004-05-12T20:27:00.000-04:00

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2004-05-11T10:59:00.000-04:00

I've been fiddling around with the paint program on the computer. I really need to get a printer so I can start implementing some of my fiddlings into my collages. Here's a pic I did yesterday: I finally checked out livejournal too. Their setup is okay but I think I prefer blogger. Blogskins is a time suck and a half. I love browsing through all the templates. Oddly enough, I, who change my

2004-05-05T23:15:00.000-04:00

Holy spring cleaning. Oh holiest of days. Exalted art thou. I've gotten so much shit put out on the curb I can't believe it. Everyroom in the house is finally clean except the kitchen which is just needing more organized now after emptying every closet and drawer in the house to get rid of unwanted stuff. Phew!

2004-04-30T17:38:00.000-04:00

I've been jotting down notes for ideas of paintings I'd like to do. My mind started wandering to the stories I've heard growing up of the people in my family. Some are just fantastic, and may possibly be spiced with pieces of fiction. Some I have no doubt are true. But I love so much these stories. My dad, who is a natural born storyteller has told me most of them. I was writing what could

2004-04-27T02:45:00.000-04:00

A friend of mine stumbled on my poetry blog and said he liked this particular one. So, because I can't find anything else to blog about at the moment I figured I'd repost it here. when I was skinny resembling skin I ran on legs like sand and pulled my way through life with listless arms when I was skinny; resembling skin I had only void between my bones and I no mass to fill my chest with

2004-04-23T13:57:00.000-04:00

Current inquiries: Universism Deism More thoughts on these later perhaps...

2004-04-22T16:33:00.000-04:00

bristled backs turn apart and away my chin buried in my shoulder coping silently Give me the words to build the bridge and coax you to the middle grant me the selflessness to smile along the way should I unknot my limbs from around my body I would wish to extend them to you and hope you take your guard down too and let us be.

2004-04-22T02:27:00.000-04:00

Had a great day today. Checked out the Audabon Society with Jack and a friend. Walked all around the trails. Got a good look at two snakes, some frogs, geese, rabbits. I forgot how long some of the trails are. Jack got tired a few times so I carried him on my back. It was such a warm windy day. Here's a pic of Jack and I: We went to my best friend Jess' house afterwards. Ate a little,

2004-04-22T02:11:00.000-04:00

When's the last time you....? Had sex?:has it been a week already? I need to get my priorities straight... Tried something new?:I tried cleaning my house today..couldn't really get into it Touched someone you didn't know on accident?:I'm sure it was at work. I bump into people all the time. Touched someone you didn't know on purpose?:I touch customers' arms all the time. Usually to give them

2004-04-17T18:47:00.000-04:00

I woke up much too late today. When I got home from work about 7am I stayed up fiddling on the computer for an hour, then I couldn't find my favorite pajama pants. So I never ended up actually getting in bed until 9. I woke up at 5:30. I really love being able to sleep late on Saturdays but it was so nice out I feel like I missed out on the day. When I woke up I couldn't find my glasses. Its

2004-04-12T13:05:00.000-04:00

We finally got some landscaping done around the house. I put up some stones & layed down pine mulch. I bought a "distressed" looking pillar and found this big glass bowl to set on top as a birdbath. And I added some little statues. We had this one spot in the yard where Jack's sandbox had left it just dirt. Melissa scored the edging of the sidewalk(where grass was 2-3 inches over in some

2004-04-12T12:59:00.000-04:00

My friend and I have been having discussions about war(in general, not specifically the Iraq war). While of course I don't advocate violence as a means of conflict resolution, he seems to be very hung up on how stupid, "animalistic", warring creatures we are as humans. I have a hard time being so dogmatic against those who engage in violence under oppression. I don't know, I'm having a hard

2004-04-06T17:07:00.000-04:00

I finally have my own computer up and running. I'm all set up in a little corner of the kitchen. I'm so excited. I should be updating almost everyday now. Let's just hope I'm not glued to the screen all day. This will be quite a test in dicipline and moderation. :)

2004-04-03T16:02:00.000-05:00

The time just slips and stumbles by. After some time of intense anxiety and feeling really dpressed I seem to have elevated myself a bit. I don't think I deal with stress very well. The only thing that saves me is strategic planning of my life. Order&organization. I'm feeling very introverted lately. In the positive way that gives me some comfort. Introspection. I've dug in

2004-02-01T15:33:00.000-05:00

Hey there. I'm still here, still no computer. I'm applying for a new job this week at the hospital. I'm pretty much just applying to anything they have open. Cafeteria, clerk, whatever. I just need to make more money than I'm making now. Things have been so slow at work and I'm just not making anything. I'd like to get a little put in savings before I start school in the fall. So its

2003-12-21T15:01:00.000-05:00

Just popping in. My posting will be infrequent because Jamey took the computer with him when he moved out. Things have been ok. A lot of hustle/bustle for the Holidays. I've been just staying home alot. Not making a lot of phone calls or meeting with people. I dropped back a day of work to just settle in with Jack. I was anxious to see how he'd handle his dad not living with us anymore.

2003-11-25T23:16:00.000-05:00

I spent time with my Uncle Bill today. My mother's brother and the only living member from her immediate family. Bill is schitzophenic/depressive and goes through waves of good/bad times. He struggles with a lot of animosity towards my mom, who is sometimes very emotional aloof. Esp. since she moved out of state I think he feels a bit abandoned. My mom, after years of taking care of his

2003-11-16T00:48:00.000-05:00

I don't want to fight with him but I'm shaking I'm pounding plastic here I've always been optomistic now its naivete and during PMS no doubt I don't even want to see him

2003-11-15T23:02:00.000-05:00

regret like a stony narrowed aperture cuffs where no dirt clings clean mid-sized urbania the wince of longing solitude a call the hermitage never claimed I find my own sexism within my own breasts having longed for the life of men the fables told before me the discourses of contemplation, observation that solitude afforded to a class that was not mine my gender was mirrored with work that never

2003-11-15T22:39:00.000-05:00

Thoreau makes my throat ache that sore pinch before my eyes puddle because I once had dreams of solitude of earth and green, the twinkling of brooks and my precious observation. In my illusions I pictured simplicity at its simplest I pictured my girl self imposed within the stories I read Kerouac on his mountain top of rock and snow walden pond, the deepness of man's soul I pictured roads and

2003-11-13T02:38:00.000-05:00

{does a happy dance} Melissa and I have been together for about(give or take a couple weeks) a year now. We kinda just picked this date awhile ago because I couldn't remember the exact one. LOL So we did the dinner and a movie thing which is always an enjoyable evening to me. I've been reading Life After God by Douglas Coupland. Wow. He's written things in there that I've never heard

2003-11-08T21:58:00.000-05:00

I've been spending alot of time painting. I think I'm finding my groove again. I finshed 2 this week and am working on another. I took pictures of my work(and Halloween!) and hope to have them up later this week. Melissa has some of her work up at a new cafe that opened. I'm so excited for her. I'm getting along really well with on of my co-workers, Karen. She's an absolutely fun

2003-10-18T11:57:00.000-04:00

I hate it when I'm off the net for a while and feel unable to think of anything to write about when I come back. Life has been good lately. Besides working(all the time, including babysitting) I've been just hanging back at home mostly. Painting, playing games with Jack, watching movies. I heard one of the most repulsive statments last night at work. A few others and myself were huddled

2003-09-28T16:52:00.000-04:00

Things I want to write about and know that if I scrawl down elsewhere it'll be lost: New neighbors Radicalness(and my lack there-of) Being a non-vegetarian my art minimalism anonymous faces my inability to "just say no" when it comes to doing things for other people video games and the preschoolers who play them But alas, I must go back to work. I've been napping on and off since getting

2003-09-26T20:12:00.000-04:00

Well I'm finally reconnected. We've been having computer problems for a while and I've been offline for a couple weeks. We rearranged our house a bit to give Jack his own bedroom(formerly the living room). We moved the couch and loveseat to the dining room which is really small and a walk-through room pretty much. But its set up so cute and cozy. I put the love seat right into the bay window

2003-09-12T21:19:00.000-04:00

This week's Friday Five 1. Is the name you have now the same name that's on your birth certificate? If not, what's changed? Yes. It's Jamie Lee {my last name}. 2. If you could change your name (first, middle and/or last), what would it be? I'd like it to be Jaymelee Sparrow. 3. Why were you named what you were? (Is there a story behind it? Who specifically was responsible for naming you?) My

2003-09-10T17:19:00.000-04:00

What a creative day. Melissa and I went to the bookstore and scored some bargains on a bunch of art books. We got ones on Matisse, Picasso, Khalo, Dali, and a big one on the History of American Artisits. We sat over coffee at Tim Horton's and checked them all out. Melissa lugged out all her paintings she has packed away so I could check out the ones I haven't seen. She really has some

2003-09-10T11:43:00.000-04:00

lone leg kicks and jitters under the table I, from afar watch the knee go up, the calf come down jerk out, slide back, tap of the heel, then the toe I'm tranfixed, I'm outside in the dusky dimness and the picture of this leg is framed in the brightness of the restaurant window Like an animated icon a short film, amatuer budget Does everyone have one leg kicking secretly under the table?

2003-09-02T22:59:00.000-04:00

Waitressing Warning: This is nothing but ranting. I've come to the horrified conclusion that I may not like being a waitress anymore. It's something I've always enjoyed, been able to keep positive about, and feel out the good of, rather than all the ways it sucks. I've seen it happen to many of the people I've worked with. They start waitressing all cheery and happy to be of service to

2003-08-27T01:13:00.000-04:00

Gossip I've never liked gossip. Ok, that's not true. I enjoy gossip the way I enjoy porn. It's something that excites me but that I know is not healthy for me, so I've vowed to avoid it. Well, I pushed my own boundries a few days ago and got embroiled in some circle of friends gossip. Actually, some of them aren't even my friends, just aquaitinces I know from work. One day a guy I know was

2003-08-27T00:58:00.000-04:00

Melissa and I have had a stressful few days. Some of our unspoken frustrations came to light in not the healthiest of ways. In otherwords, we had our first serious argument. I knew when she moved in it was too soon. I knew I was doing it for the wrong reasons (financially, etc.). But I still didn't realize the full scope of it. Even though my and Jamey's relationship had been dissipated for

2003-08-27T00:16:00.000-04:00

Let me please extend a humbling bow of awe and respect to mothers with multiple kids. I recently started babysitting 2x a week for a good friend of mine who has three children under 5. The job rocks because her kids are great and I love that Jack finally has some regular playfriends. But after leaving the first day all sweaty and stressed I thought, "Oh my god, can I actually do this?" LOL

2003-08-19T01:47:00.000-04:00

I accidentally slammed Jack's finger in the dryer door today. :*( I felt so awful! I didn't even notice he was holding on the to the top of door while I was putting clothes in. And what's worse is that the door doesn't latch/stay shut alot, so I actually *slammed* it shut with all my might. When he started yelling, "My finger!My finger!" and I saw that the door was completely shut on it, I

2003-08-17T16:33:00.000-04:00

I really like the idea of being car-free. Since Melissa moved in I've had the luxury of being able to get around easier and quicker because she has a car. But for years, the idea of a tri or quad bike has been pestering me. I imagine a tri-cycle with a seat for me in the front, and a bench seat in the back, where Jack could sit. I swore that I would make this bike someday. Well, hunting

2003-08-14T04:24:00.000-04:00

My friend Jess and I had a long talk at Girl's Night the other night about her issues with her girlfriend and what not. Jess talked alot about her feelings that she really wants to predominately date men. She's thinking long term about her lifeand what she wants out of it. And she wants to be in a partnership with a man and have children. I really hate that she feels so awfully torn, being in

2003-08-14T04:00:00.000-04:00

I made a new friend today. There's these 3 people who usually come in to the restaurant on Sunday nights(I call them the Fab Trio) and I felt a certain affinity to them because the one girl seemed really dykey and she wears really eccentric clothing, which I find irresistable. They are from Buffalo(a couple hours away) but work at Chautauqua Institution nearby. One time they asked where was

2003-08-13T02:55:00.000-04:00

When I work, the only employees there are two waitresses and the cook. The cook I usually work with is Sue. Sue is about 55, has a lot of aches and pains and married to a man who drinks and talks too much. We sit outside in the back of the restaurant and smoke cigarettes together when its a slow night and her problems with her husband(and her aches and pains of course) are what she usually

2003-08-12T15:21:00.000-04:00

I am definately going back to school. I've been dreaming and hem/hawing about it for a while because of the obstacles of making it happen with having to work and raise Jack. But its concrete now. No matter what, I'm going to college. I'm definately going to have to get public assistance to do it. I don't think getting financial aid will be too hard, given what i make and that I'm a single

2003-08-12T14:42:00.000-04:00

I was saddened to hear that a friend I use to hang with was arrested for a rash of armed convienence store robberies(although glad that he's not out on the street anymore). I've been told he's a heroin junkie. :( He was an extremely talented musician. It's sad what drugs do to people sometimes. Maybe he'll be able to get his shit together now, cause he's going to be in prison for a long time.

2003-08-12T14:35:00.000-04:00

Thank god for my girls. Last night was Girl's Night. A periodic get-together of my friends where we wear feather boas, drink, and create a general ruckus. Last Girl's Night involved copious amounts of wine and running around in a thunderstorm with our shirts off. This time it was at my friend's Shannons house who just happens to have the most fabo huge apartment. My friend Nikki made her "

2003-07-31T16:36:00.000-04:00

Well, I'm computerless for an indefinate amount of time. Just updating a bit from the library... Life as usual, forest hikes with Jack, lazy humid days in the yard and so on. The smoking ban has cleared both the air and the customers from my restaurant. My tips are half of what they were. Hopefully it will pick up again or I'll be scanning the classifieds here soon. Been having weekly

2003-07-05T17:38:00.000-04:00

Work

2003-07-02T03:23:00.000-04:00

Stolen from one of my favorite bloggers, Holly : 1. If you had to choose an alias, what would it be? Let's just say I'm sad that Anastasia Beaverhausen is already taken. 2. Where were you on 9/11? I woke up in the morning and sat down at the computer. I went to check out the news and found out. It was utterly chilling to watch the video of it while it was all still going on and no one new

2003-06-30T03:55:00.000-04:00

Feminism/Marriage I brought up something on a feminist discussion board that I thought I'd bring here. When Jamey and I had discussed marriage a long time back, one of my main concerns(among other personal ones) was that it was an institution that discriminated against gays/lesbians. This was before I came out, to myself or anyone else, btw. It was just something that really didn't sit right

2003-06-24T01:15:00.000-04:00

Crazy Stuff My brother got into a bad car accident. I can't believe he walked away with nothing broken, although he's really banged up. What made it even worse, is that my mom was driving down the road it happened on, and recognized his car all totalled with police cars all around it! I keep thinking about that experience. She says she felt like she was in catatonic shock. Her partner had to

2003-06-19T23:53:00.000-04:00

Camping with Cellphones As I bundled down to sleep in our tent the other night that title came to me, since Melissa brought her cellphone just in case. Its so funny how different things are when you grow older, or become a parent. :P I did some serious hiking/climbing. The waterfalls where we camp are just so amazing. The entire place looks like no ones ever been there. In fact, when I tell

2003-06-10T01:10:00.000-04:00

porch laughter shifting in our seats the clink of ice cubes in Jim Beam and whistles from the street slow times, better than sloe gin lamplight frames the doorway cats rolling in the moonlit yard and your grin looking my way You call me your little straw hat Well, lady, you're my ten gallon.

2003-06-06T20:07:00.000-04:00

Stolen from Madame Fabulous LAYER ONE -- Name: Jaymelee -- Birth date: June 16, 1980 -- Birthplace: Jamestown, NY -- Current Location: Jamestown, NY -- Eye Color: Green/Hazel -- Hair Color: natural:dark brown, currently:OrangeRed with brown lowlights -- Height: 5'8 -- Righty or Lefty: Left for writing and painting, right for everything else -- Zodiac Sign: Gemini to a T LAYER TWO: -- Your

2003-05-30T20:17:00.000-04:00

My best friend is moving away in the next few days. All our girlfriends are getting together at the club for a hopping going away party. Jess and I haven't really spent alot of time together recently, although we've forced the issue by making plans and never following through on them multiple times. We've never been that far away from each other. Best friends since we were 3, she moved away

2003-05-24T16:19:00.000-04:00

I need to get back to basics. After my son was born, I worked so hard at creatnig the life that I wanted for me and my family. Being forced to go back to work full-time so suddenly, and the stress of why I had to just threw me into survival mode and I stopped living conciously of my goals and beliefs. A year and a half later, I'm now ready to start getting back to living instead of just

2003-05-20T11:25:00.000-04:00

This-Or-That Tuesday 1. Large or small family? Large, but not as in alot of kids. :) 2. Potato chips or pretzels? Chips, but only Salt and Vinegar 3. House or apartment? I look forward to owning my own house. There's no security in renting. 4. Zebras or giraffes? Giraffes, I love their coloring. And they are goofy looking as hell. 5. Candles or potpourri? Candles. I've yet to come across

2003-05-20T05:11:00.000-04:00

Oh my goodness. We had *the* most wonderful day yesterday. Melissa, Jack, and I were all out of the house by 11am, got something to eat and headed out to Arkwright Falls. It's where we went camping a while ago. We spent almost 7 hours just hiking the river up to the little falls. Jack was such a trooper! This kid was born for hiking. At some places through the river, the rocky/slate

2003-05-14T09:13:00.000-04:00

Is there a "gay lifestyle"? Am I missing something? I've seen people refer to being gay as a "lifestyle" and I honestly don't get it. It's come up on a couple message boards I frequent and it really irritates me. I know most of their logic stems from stereotypes of "what gay people are like", but even when questioned or confronted about it, these people still hold strong that being gay is or

2003-05-08T03:17:00.000-04:00

We just hired a new waitress at the restaurant. We were talking and she mentioned how relieving it was that we could eat for free here. She's been out of work for a while because of sickness, and in the process of moving so is really short on money. She's raising 2 kids by herself because babys' daddy skipped town. I hear these life stories everyday. Maybe its where I work. In my town, in

2003-05-05T10:19:00.000-04:00

I was just reading a short interview with Margaret Cho in a archived issue of Sojourner. In one part she says, "I have to fight the sexism and also the internalized sexism that I have. I think that's the hardest, fighting that within yourself. And the second hardest is fighting it in other women. I got to thinking about the internalized sexism I've carried within myself throughout my life. I

2003-05-04T07:33:00.000-04:00

I miss mornings working late I start my day close to noon but on the weekends coming home at 7am cab ride through town white sun breaking over buildings shadows crisp like thick calligraphy stepping up to the porch my house looks different in the morning fresh as postcard pictures clear and quiet not like the well worn afternoon like a flat still life portrait I wish sleep had already visited

2003-04-25T03:34:00.000-04:00

I had a lucid dream the other night. Very weird. I often have dreams where I know that I'm dreaming, but only a few where I have control over the dream. In this recent dream I was controlling my surroundings. And the moment I realized I was dreaming(almost the first thing I remember) I sensed that I was simply placed in a scene. That I was playing a part almost. I was Me in the dream, sensing

2003-04-21T16:50:00.000-04:00

Last night after work, Melissa and I sat on the porch and had a beer during the rainstorm. It was pure relaxation. I love the way the reflection of orange street lights bleeds along the wet road. I love the chaotic sound of a million random raindrops turn into music, all coordinated and rthymic. I love looking over at someone you love watching the rain, their eyes not fixed but far-off and deep

2003-04-15T00:13:00.000-04:00

Melissa and I have been making necklaces/bracelets. I've been using wire and teeny beads and she's been doing hemp ones. She was so excited when I looked up knots on the net and she got to learn some new ones. :) I swear she made eight necklaces in the time it took me to bead one. I couldn't get my flow going though cause Jack kept wanting to "help". :) Melissa had a bunch of huge wooden

2003-04-14T23:28:00.000-04:00

Is it true lesbians hold stock in U-Haul? j/k lol But really, Melissa is moving in. I know this feels incredibly fast and I would be lying if I said I was feeling really calm and assured about it. But its just what's happening. Her mom sold the house she's been living at and she's cut ties with a lot of her friends that we're involved in heavy partying/drama that she's just not about. And

2003-04-04T22:23:00.000-05:00

1. How many houses/apartments have you lived in throughout your life? Quite a few. I moved a few times from infancy to 3 yrs. But then I lived in that same house from 3 yrs to 12 yrs. A nice quaint house in a blue-collar neighborhood. Then lived in surreal suburbia till I was 17 and moved in with my dad in "the ghetto". Lived with Jamey for a few months, then we got a small apt. where we lived

2003-04-04T16:14:00.000-05:00

Well, we've got the first camping trip of the year under our belts. But boy did we pick the wrong day to go! Wednesday was so warm and beautiful but Melissa and I both had to work so we thought going bright and early Thursday would be ok. We completely ignored the weather channel because we spent a bit of money preparing for the trip and got Jack all worked up about, lol. We had a good time

2003-03-28T20:58:00.000-05:00

Man, I have been just slacking on blogging lately. My life has just been so utilitarian lately. I've got everything on my mind and no energy to talk about it. I've been a wee bit on the self-loathing side too. Feeling like I'm not putting my all into mothering, that I've been spending to much time away from Jack, that I'm not making enough money, not keeping my house clean. And every night

2003-03-20T17:48:00.000-05:00

I know these have posted just about everywhere, but in case someone out there hasn't seen them I had to post them. They left me literally laughing out loud. rotfl What to do in case of a terrorist attack

2003-03-14T20:30:00.000-05:00

Friday Five 1. Do you like talking on the phone? Why or why not? I was never a phone talker. Even through high school I used to phone to make plans and that's it. However, since Melissa and I have been together I've turned into a phone chatter. We gab on the phone all the time. Talk until we go to bed, and wake up and chat in the morning. 2. Who is the last person you talked to on the phone? My

2003-03-14T02:33:00.000-05:00

Melissa and her roomate Jason are moving out of their house(where they had other roomates and it wasn't working out) and getting an apt. together. I am so happy to hear this. She is so happy now. And happy girlfriend makes me happy. :) I feel like I've done nothing but lay on the couch and veg with Jack for days. He's not feverish anymore but still not feeling great. He's lost any schedule of

2003-03-13T00:18:00.000-05:00

Well, Jamey is no longer working. He just stopped going to yet another job. I have no idea what to do now. That goodness they upped my hours at work and I have money in the bank. There is no way I'm going to support him when he doesn't have a job. I've done that too many times and for too long in the past. He's going to have to get his own place to live. I think I'm going to give him

2003-03-07T15:46:00.000-05:00

New keyboard. :) I spilled juice on my last one and it was working for a while and then quit during my last post. Anyway, here's Friday Five 1. What was the last song you heard? Just caught the video of Johnny Cash covering NIN's "Hurt". Totally threw me. I love that song and he did uniquely and the video was amazing. 2. What were the last two movies you saw? Watched Mulholland Drive(LOVE

2003-03-01T23:42:00.000-05:00

I was born in this town I live in now. Moved around a bit until I was 3 when my mom and (step)dad settled in to a house on a small street in a nice neighborhood. It was the house my father lived in as a kid all the way until he graduated high school. I honestly had a wonderful childhood. Our small street was shaped like a U and only those who lived there had any need to travel down in. This

2003-03-01T23:25:00.000-05:00

I am so not in a good mood right now. Jamey and I just had a fight and I'm stewing. The worst thing about this fight is that it was over the computer. The fucking computer. Whcih I am sad to say that most of our fights have been about. He was on the computer *ALL* day today. Literally all day. From like 7am this morning until now. I don't know how he hasn't got a headache or leg cramps form

2003-02-28T15:04:00.000-05:00

Friday Five 1. What is your favorite type of literature to read (magazine, newspaper, novels, nonfiction, poetry, etc.)? Probably non-fiction. I've only gotten into novels this year. I love poetry, but can't sit and read a book of it or something. I like to read something that moves me and then put the book down and try to carry it around with me for the day. 2. What is your favorite novel?

2003-02-28T11:20:00.000-05:00

Work. I love my job. I enjoy what I'm doing. I do not like my boss and I dislike many of the people I work with. I got a call Wednesday night from a co-worker saying, "Did you know you had to work today? Tony(boss) couldn't get a hold of you and had to call someone else in." Well, I know I didn't have to work Wednesday. So I know the bastard changed the schedule and didn't tell me. Great. So

2003-02-21T14:31:00.000-05:00

Friday Five 1. What is your most prized material possession? My books. All 400+ of them. 2. What item, that you currently own, have you had the longest? I have a book called "Mister Dog" by Margaret Wise Brown that I've had since I was 2. It was a Christmas present form my mom. 3. Are you a packrat? Oh my, that's an understatement. I'm much better now that my favorite cheap thrift store

2003-02-21T13:38:00.000-05:00

Melissa and I went out for coffee last night and started gabbing about making a movie for fun. So we set off writing a screenplay, lol. I can't even tell you how many hours we worked on developing characters and setting and character connections & everything. It was quite fun. :) We stayed at the restaurant long after they stopped bringing us coffee and out of the chatter of voices around us

2003-02-17T13:15:00.000-05:00

If anyone wants a clue-in to my little piece of existence, The 7 Bad Habits of Highly Ineffective People explains it well. ROTFL

2003-02-12T09:25:00.000-05:00

I've got the cutest girlfriend in the world. She picked me up from work last night and we went to her mom's house who's out of town for a week. She had cooked a nice vegatarian dinner for me, with a homemade cherry pie from scratch, and got me flowers. {grinning ear to ear}. It helps that she's an amazing cook too. She made this yummy cheesy rice/vegatable casserole. Then we lounged on the

2003-02-10T23:05:00.000-05:00

I set up a new blog for writing poetry. There's not much there but I'm not putting anything already written up, I'm using it to write-as-I-go, etc. So here it is : Folkspeak

2003-02-08T13:13:00.000-05:00

The Dykewrite Assignment I am lounging on my couch, kicking a beer Break it down and keep it simple. Why does that that thinking evade me at times? When I sit back knowing....this is my right place I'll have to be content having a home again Enough with the pipe dreams Everything is so Significant and Complicated but i am just sick sick sick sad I'm gonna need a bigger, better disaster to be

2003-02-07T20:55:00.000-05:00

WooHoo! Look what I found: WordNerd. I'm obsessed with etymology. Words are just everything to me. I've been reading the dictionary like a novel since I was in 4th grade. I have to go put this in my blog list. It's definately a daily read...

2003-02-06T12:26:00.000-05:00

I remember when... I first went to "the pond". I was 12 years old. It was summer break. I had an unusual amount of freedom, in that as long as I told my mother where I was going and what time I would be back, I could pretty much stay out all day. I had just started dating my first boyfriend and rode my bike all the way across town to see him. He said he and his friends were going to this pond

2003-02-04T11:09:00.000-05:00

~Happy Birthday Jaxon!!~ My sweet little munchkin turns 3 years old today! How fast the time flies! I still have yet to figure out how to upload pics from my dig. camera so here's some older pics of my boy. Us at the Blue Heron Music Festival I swear I'm going to get the pics from camera tonight. I've got some new really cute ones of him I can't wait to post. I unfortunately have to

2003-01-31T14:20:00.000-05:00

Can Bi's be Dykes? At another site there's been discussion about biphobia/labels/etc. I know that many people within the gay community have problems or hangups with bisexuality. I don't think its an issue thats really been addressed as to set any precedents for what's an acceptable mindset. I think people are still acting and speaking on social/community "norms", whether that's the straight or

2003-01-31T11:22:00.000-05:00

Friday Fives 1. As a child, who was your favorite superhero/heroine? Why? I honestly don't remember. I don't think I had one? 2. What was one thing you always wanted as a child but never got? A cat. For some reason, my mom didn't like cats. I asked for a kitten every birthday and Christmas my entire life. I must have brought home dozens and dozens of stray cats and was never allowed to keep them

2003-01-27T17:37:00.000-05:00

What fairy tale cliche are you? brought to you by Quizilla Heehee

2003-01-21T00:28:00.000-05:00

I thought this was kind of cool. Straight But Not Narrow